My usefulness today is at a all-time low of zero, because I have no obligations and it feels nice.
So you can understand my frustration when I was looking like hell, pyjama pants on, coffee in hand, sitting at my computer and up pops "LALALA sends you a video request!".
I wouldn't be complaining if I was a treat to look at, because friends are friends and boys who crush on me are boys who crush on me, but the only exception to my 'no makeup and less clothes than I prefer' rule are boyfriends and BFFs.
+ If it's a guy you're just starting to date, it's okay if you've woken up next to eachother.
- If it's a crush you want to sleep with, urgh.

I didn't feel at all guilty clicking 'decline', much to his dismay and my protest that I feel disgusting and want to be left alone in the end got me called a "selfish bitch". Mature, boy. You'll be reading this and make some ridiculous comment, but I have yet to care. Smile face.

Anyways, I have gotten the time to upload pictures onto my laptop via my two cameras, although my Canon cord is MIA and the card doesn't fit in my slot - which sounds kind of perverted when I'm this tired.
So a handful of shitty quality photos will have to do for the time being.
I have updated twice in the same day, that's commitment!

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I use to write so much, and I don't even know what to type anymore.
There is so much going on inside my head I cannot even begin to put it into words.
It seems like everything is going on too fast, and I cannot catch up enough to know what exactly is going on.
Does that make sense?
(This is not boyfriend related - for once.)
I need to work with time, instead of against it. That's my greatest downfall.

I've come to a grand conclusion that drama doesn't follow me.
It rides on my back.
And I let it. Good/Bad? I don't know.
I'd rather laugh than cry, and I've been doing a lot of laughing.
HAR HAR HAR, Bitch! HAR HAR HAR!

This isn't meant to be a 'deep livejournal' post, so there is NO deeper meaning than what I'm saying.
Or maybe there is, and I refuse to see it.
Life will go on, with or without me 'on board'. Let's just smile and nod, kids.